okies , the day we`ve been dreading was over .
but few days back , went with my mummy to bring feitu for vetting. the doc said we`ve got 3 ways to deal with her, give her surgery , leave her as it is, or put to sleep . mummy chose to give her surgery, fortunately. then we bid goodbye to feitu , then i tearred like f the moment i stroked feitu. i thought that could probably the last time i could touch her . ): since doc said she`s old and passing her for a surgery is like gambling with her life . so i prayed and prayed and prayed on the journey back home , and before sleep. and i hope god hears my prayers .
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i came to recite this phrase i mentioned previously, "heart bopping like a pogo stick during the release of promotional status" . then came thursday, but there wasn`t any sense of anxiety. more of a sudden gush of anguish out of nowhere, probably the espressions of classmates' when i took a quick scan around the class. the scenario was scary, like those ellimination progs i`ve seen on tvs. and the way eddie koh addressed to us..that day sucks, i hoped there`s this remote control which falls down from the sky where i can just press the >> button and time just freaking fast forward by itself - i hate how things were dragged that way.
i started searching for friends at the concourse, cause others with conditions where sent to various venues then . i bet everyone were searching or waiting too, or they`ll be heading home otherwise. anyways, the whole thing just went shitty right from the start . i vowed to myself not to join any programmes that elliminates players haha . cause i don`t want that sudden gush of emotions out of nowhere. and i don`t wanna see anyone being let behind. ):
maybe this thing is over, but the feelings still dwell on - as i stumbled across posts and more posts . i hope time heals everyone (:
i`m sorry i started and end here with a stupid sad post D:
and god bless everyone, and feitu )':
anw i found out that they celebrate jingwen`s birthday then never jio me )))))))))))))): why liddat ))))):
and today`s yuanshan`s bday :3 can`t celebrate but happy workingggg . keke .
btw i`m bobb-ed . HAHA . no hair (/'3')/ . *attempts to lighten up the spirit
