i cant resist but to say. i hate YOU.
when i told you i felt left out, you told me you know how i feel. but, i think you dont. every time, every second i turned my head to look at you, theres always a companion beside you. you just dont understand how i really felt. you said this is not what you want. but seeing alot of people crowding around you, i really cant stand it. i hate it.
if i really could wish something that happen in the world, i would wish to see you being alone. with no one else beside you, no one to talk to, emptiness in your heart. nothing but just alone. then you will know how much tradgedy i gone through. just a simple sentence "i know how you feel" laugh out loud man. cant imagine what expression is on your face. probably laughing at me,
everytime you cried, theres always someone to comfort you. we've gone through a tradgedy once together, but seeing everyone crowding around you, comforting you, my heart really shattered into million pieces. whenever you are down, others would care for you., as if theres no tomorrow. but when im down, they just take it as nothing ever happened. i could just say im invisible.
dont think im jealous, i just wanna confront you. i hate you. i really hate you. everyone thinks that you are superior, but in my eyes, you are just an attention seeker who wants others to care for you. "lonliness" and "emptiness" are just nothing to you. you dont know how to survive without people around you.
you said you want to quit that. and others will do the same. they are just like your magnets, always forever attracted to you. you had not learnt to be independent. all you know is you have companion beside you. everytime seeing others standing around you, only you the one sitting there. like you are the queen or what. you dont deserve to be respected. cause, you are just a popular girl, who dont understand others feelings. treated friends like balloons, once they are deflated, you simply let them go. let then fly away to a place far far away. and treated them like strangers again.
i see how you survive next year...
